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Choices

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I can already see your smiling face
looking upon me with such joy.
So young and unconcerned.
You love me so much when you hardly know me.

If only you knew
you would hate me, fear me,
run at the very sight of me.

You deserve someone better than me
someone who will love and cherish you
as you deserve.

Yet you continue to love me, to trust me.
Why don’t you understand? I love you
that’s why I’ve got to do it.

You need someone who can care for you
like I’ll never be able to.
By ending it now I’m giving you another chance
another chance at the life you should have.

There's no turning back now
I’ve made my decision
you’ve got to go.

Its better this way
for you and for me.

Perhaps if you had come in to my life later
it wouldn’t have to end this way
you have to understand
I love you, I don’t want to do it
but I have to.

I’m already on my way there
my mind is made up
theres no second guessing
my decision is final

I have to follow through
life will be better for both of us
For once I know what I’m doing is right
perhaps not entirely moral
but my heart tells me this is what I need to do.

I’m sorry that it has to end this way
I want to keep you so badly
but I can’t
You bring me joy, sorrow, regret, anger, hatred

Joy at the idea that you’re mine
sorrow because I can’t keep you.
Regret because I should have known better
Anger with myself for being so dumb
Hatred because one choice leads me to this

This decision which hurts us both
but which of us is hurt worse
you or me?

I’m sorry but it was my only choice
If I hadn’t done this things would be horrible for us
I really did love you you know
That’s why I had to abort you
… so you would have a better mother than me
interpret it as you like
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blackdahlia911's avatar
i can completely relate to this poem! well written :)